week #4 - habitual actions.

I don't really have and "odd" or "unusual" habits. I suppose the only habit I have is that I cant sleep in a room if I can see in a mirror. I have two mirrors in my room and every night I have to put them on the floor so I can't see in them. If I'm at someone else's house and they have mirrors I have to sleep facing the opposite direction. I suppose it's sort of a fear thing; I feel like I'm going to look in one of them in the middle of the night and see something that isn't supposed to be there...or someone. It's only at night though. During the day I can look in mirrors and see them out of the corner of my eye and not be worried about seeing anything but when nighttime comes I can't do it at all.

week #1- Dear babycakes,

Dear Babycakes,
I have brought you into this world and I couldn't be happier. Although you are completely perfect in my eyes, this cruel world sees only what it wants. Don't let opinions of others ever change the wonderful person that you are today. Throughout my years of life, I admit, I have been influenced by the opinions and peer pressure of others. These same decisions are the ones i regret the most. I know that people say, "Just be yourself" all the time, and it sounds cheesy and meaningless, but its not. My advice to you is to do exactly that. Be yourself. Because the people in your life that like you for who you really are, are the people you have the most fun with, and when it comes time for you to grow up and find the love of your life, you want them to love you for who you are, not who your so-called friends have made you. I don't have any expectations from you. I want you to do what makes you happy and be with the people that put a smile on your face. You aren't expected to bring home large paychecks or support me and your father when we are old. All i expect is you to be you and not to let anyone change that. You will make mistakes, i understand that, i made them as well. But you learn from them. You couldn't let me down if your tried.

Sincerely,
Mom.

week 8- regretting my decision.

Most of my important decisions i am forced to make throughout my life are well thought out to the point where i am satisfied with my overall decision and show no regret. However, there are a few choices i have made that i look back on now and think, "man, how could i have been so stupid?" One of my worst decision would have to be the one i made in early November 2009. I worked at subway and had a steady income and an easy job. I didn't work too many hours so i had time to hang out with my friends too. But for some reason, i felt like that wasn't enough; when i wasn't given more hours, i chose to quit my job and seek employment from an establishment that would give me the hours. To my dismay, i was not as successful as i originally intended. I was unaware as to just how bad the economy was at this point in time and i didn't expect finding a job to be this hard. It is currently March 2010 and i still don't have a job. For someone like me, who has been employed and making a steady income for the past four and a half years straight, suddenly not having that income is pure torture. I hate having to rely on my parents and my winnings from lottery tickets (even though i have been quite lucky lately). Quitting that job is currently my biggest regret.