week 5A- the ideal mate.

My ideal mate would have shaggy brown hair and glasses. He would be slightly taller then me. He would be amazing at playing guitar and able to make me laugh even when I'm at my worst of times. He would be skinny but still muscular...the perfect body type. He would look amazing no matter what he wore and he would always smell good. He would make me weak in the knees just by looking at me. He would constantly remind me of how much he loves me. Our first kiss would be in my car in Jesse Reiner's driveway and his name would be Bryan Kirk. < 3

week 4A looking forward.

Since im doing this blog late, the one thing that i am looking forward to the most right now is my upcoming graduation from Olympia high school. I have three days left and then i am completely done. It honestly doesn't feel like it has been three years and im sure ill miss seeing my friends but i think its time to go out into the world and grow up. Another thing i am excited for coming up is the senior trip to six flags, which is only four days away! Like i said in my "top ten" blog, im a bit of an adrenaline junkie so i looovvveee roller coasters. I can't wait to go to six flags and ride every single one! I see it as my last chance to be a kid before i have to grow up.

week 3A snopes.

So i honestly didn't watch the Blair witch project until last year. (I'm pretty sure it came out in 2000) but for those of you that don't know about it, the movie supposedly is footage that was found after four friends went missing in the woods. The footage is low budget filming that follows them through a bunch of creepy events that happen to them and at the end of the movie you hear a loud scream and it cuts to a black screen, making you think they were all killed. Their camping trip was a hike to visit a so called witch on this mountain. When i watched the movie, it scared the crud out of me. I have never been more terrified of a movie in my entire life. But then, of course, i found out that the movie was fake and the "actors" were all very much alive. I watched it once more after I figured that out and it just seemed stupid.

week 2A topten.

This is a list of the top ten things i want to do before i die....sort of a shortened version of my bucket list.

1. Go to Australia.

My original reason was to meet the crocodile hunter but now that he is gone (R.I.P.) i want to go visit his grave.

2. Get married.

nobody wants to die alone right? its a pretty typical think to want.

3. Ride in a monster truck.

I don't even have to be driving it, i just want to be in it when it does something cool like jump some cars or something.

4. Make an impact on someones life in a good way.

i want to, at some point in my life, do something so amazing or nice for someone that will change their life for the better and all because of something that i did for them.

5. go skydiving

im a bit of an adrenaline junkie and its something i've never done.

6. Go to Hawaii.

It is just so freaking pretty!

7. have a kid...or kids.

babies! babies! babies!

8. fly a plane.

first ill have to get my pilot license but i felt like this was more of my overall goal.

9. stop drinking Pepsi.

for those of you that actually know me...you probably know that this isn't going to happen.

10. spend the rest of my life with Bryan Kirk<3

((refer to number 2))

week #4 - habitual actions.

I don't really have and "odd" or "unusual" habits. I suppose the only habit I have is that I cant sleep in a room if I can see in a mirror. I have two mirrors in my room and every night I have to put them on the floor so I can't see in them. If I'm at someone else's house and they have mirrors I have to sleep facing the opposite direction. I suppose it's sort of a fear thing; I feel like I'm going to look in one of them in the middle of the night and see something that isn't supposed to be there...or someone. It's only at night though. During the day I can look in mirrors and see them out of the corner of my eye and not be worried about seeing anything but when nighttime comes I can't do it at all.

week #1- Dear babycakes,

Dear Babycakes,
I have brought you into this world and I couldn't be happier. Although you are completely perfect in my eyes, this cruel world sees only what it wants. Don't let opinions of others ever change the wonderful person that you are today. Throughout my years of life, I admit, I have been influenced by the opinions and peer pressure of others. These same decisions are the ones i regret the most. I know that people say, "Just be yourself" all the time, and it sounds cheesy and meaningless, but its not. My advice to you is to do exactly that. Be yourself. Because the people in your life that like you for who you really are, are the people you have the most fun with, and when it comes time for you to grow up and find the love of your life, you want them to love you for who you are, not who your so-called friends have made you. I don't have any expectations from you. I want you to do what makes you happy and be with the people that put a smile on your face. You aren't expected to bring home large paychecks or support me and your father when we are old. All i expect is you to be you and not to let anyone change that. You will make mistakes, i understand that, i made them as well. But you learn from them. You couldn't let me down if your tried.

Sincerely,
Mom.

week 8- regretting my decision.

Most of my important decisions i am forced to make throughout my life are well thought out to the point where i am satisfied with my overall decision and show no regret. However, there are a few choices i have made that i look back on now and think, "man, how could i have been so stupid?" One of my worst decision would have to be the one i made in early November 2009. I worked at subway and had a steady income and an easy job. I didn't work too many hours so i had time to hang out with my friends too. But for some reason, i felt like that wasn't enough; when i wasn't given more hours, i chose to quit my job and seek employment from an establishment that would give me the hours. To my dismay, i was not as successful as i originally intended. I was unaware as to just how bad the economy was at this point in time and i didn't expect finding a job to be this hard. It is currently March 2010 and i still don't have a job. For someone like me, who has been employed and making a steady income for the past four and a half years straight, suddenly not having that income is pure torture. I hate having to rely on my parents and my winnings from lottery tickets (even though i have been quite lucky lately). Quitting that job is currently my biggest regret.